beware of the closest person. they'll twist your words.
Spent the whole day by myself. Feels good. Finally I'm sick of Ben&Jerry's. Spent alot on food. Eat 1 big tub of ben&jerry's a day. Eat it when I'm sad. So I ate 1.5 tub today. Finally done with my blogskin. Hopefully it won't go missing again. Watched tv the whole day. One after another. Cooked my own dinner because my mom went home late. Painted my toe nails. I think I did sort of enjoyed my day. I think.. I don't know. I'm just very upset over everything. Family.. Girlfriend.. Bestfriend.. I know I've been saying this but I am very tired of living. Soon, I'm going blind. Cry when I eat, Cry when I take my shower, Cry when I'm chatting, Cry when I'm watching tv. Life's really down now. I just can't wait for everything to be over. Fay told Char that I dated a guy when I was with her. I remember telling her that I went out with my neighbour and no one dates in the morning. Chun and I have been friends ever since I moved in. How can that be a date. I can't believe she's my sister. I'm just so upset. 3 weeks and I'm still not okay? I was so tempted to seek for counselling. My happiness didn't last. I just hope that I'll enjoy myself at the stadium tomorrow.
I just want to be alone. Stay away from the crowd. I don't want to find trouble. I'm already feeling really troubled. My results are bad. It's the worse results ever. Mommy's going to kill me. I don't know how to face the world. Everyone keep telling me to be strong. I know I have to but the qn is.. How? Life's upfair. I try to appreciate everything. But it doesn't fill my happiness. What do I exactly want? What can I do to fullfill my emptiness and happiness? Sometimes, I just want to run away and start anew. I'm so tired of living up to expectations. I don't know how to spend my weekends this time. My life is so messy. My smile and happiness are unlikely to come back. Laughters didn't last. So screwed-
If God ask me what I want in Life, I want to run away from reality. It's just too painful to live in it.
Spent the whole day by myself. Feels good. Finally I'm sick of Ben&Jerry's. Spent alot on food. Eat 1 big tub of ben&jerry's a day. Eat it when I'm sad. So I ate 1.5 tub today. Finally done with my blogskin. Hopefully it won't go missing again. Watched tv the whole day. One after another. Cooked my own dinner because my mom went home late. Painted my toe nails. I think I did sort of enjoyed my day. I think.. I don't know. I'm just very upset over everything. Family.. Girlfriend.. Bestfriend.. I know I've been saying this but I am very tired of living. Soon, I'm going blind. Cry when I eat, Cry when I take my shower, Cry when I'm chatting, Cry when I'm watching tv. Life's really down now. I just can't wait for everything to be over. Fay told Char that I dated a guy when I was with her. I remember telling her that I went out with my neighbour and no one dates in the morning. Chun and I have been friends ever since I moved in. How can that be a date. I can't believe she's my sister. I'm just so upset. 3 weeks and I'm still not okay? I was so tempted to seek for counselling. My happiness didn't last. I just hope that I'll enjoy myself at the stadium tomorrow.
I just want to be alone. Stay away from the crowd. I don't want to find trouble. I'm already feeling really troubled. My results are bad. It's the worse results ever. Mommy's going to kill me. I don't know how to face the world. Everyone keep telling me to be strong. I know I have to but the qn is.. How? Life's upfair. I try to appreciate everything. But it doesn't fill my happiness. What do I exactly want? What can I do to fullfill my emptiness and happiness? Sometimes, I just want to run away and start anew. I'm so tired of living up to expectations. I don't know how to spend my weekends this time. My life is so messy. My smile and happiness are unlikely to come back. Laughters didn't last. So screwed-
If God ask me what I want in Life, I want to run away from reality. It's just too painful to live in it.
